honest.

Today, I'm going to share a little something that I deal with on a regular basis; something that I am realizing more and more every day. I believe this quality about me is something God is trying to turn into another way to bring Him glory. I am an on the go person. I don't sit still often and I am constantly looking for the next thing to look forward to, anything new, anything exciting and busy, wherever I can find people, a new hobby or band, or vacation etc... and I don't want to do any of it without my husband or my daughter. I am often daydreaming about where I see us down the road, setting goals, and trying to make the absolute most of every day on earth.

I am learning that there is a good and a bad side to this quality. The good is that I am intentional, relational, and many of my priorities line up with how I believe God wants to use me and whatever my gifts are for his glory. I am spontaneous, free-spirited, laid back, and easily excited about life and all it has to offer.

Here's the bad. I notice that I get bored easily and can be dependent on excitement/newness. Routine scares me, commitment scares me, the idea of being stuck in a rut is my worst nightmare. I have found myself upset with my husband when he "gets in the way" of my dreams, even if he is simply suggesting another option, way before any of it would even be a possibility for us. I'll spend time on pinterest finding more recipes, more projects, more crochet stitches to try, more jewelry that I love, another book I want to read, a new workout playlist, etc.. And before long I am go go go again.

I totally believe that God made me this way, but that He desires for me to set my priorities according to His will. He wants me to respect my husband by considering his future plans/dreams too, and sometimes it might replace one of mine, even though it doesn't sound appealing the first time. I believe God wants me to sit still and spend more time digging deeper into the word and in prayer because ultimately He wants me to know Him so I can be more like Him. I may think I can represent Christ on my own, but I am nothing without Him and for goodness sake, I have a daughter I'm trying to raise! I will and have already made mistakes, but if I do nothing else, I want to be able to get to heaven one day, knowing that I did my very best to serve and respect the husband God gave me. I want to be sure that I did my very best to raise our children to be like Christ. Those are real accomplishments. I can't imagine He will be impressed with how many recipes I have mastered, the number of headbands I have made for my daughter, or how perfectly decorated my house is.

Each of us has the same number of hours in a day. How we use that time says a lot about who we are and what we value most. My prayer, is that I will be a woman who gives that precious time to God, trusting that He will fulfill my "needs" for all things exciting/new. After all, I could never have dreamed up what God has allowed me to experience in the first 25 years of my life.
Besides, to live is Christ, to die is gain. Can I get an Amen?! ;)

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run.

For anyone who cares, as far as I am concerned "runners high" doesn't exist and I swallowed more bugs than I care to admit last night.

Sorry if this is TMI but I am almost done breast feeding and I promised myself that I would at least attempt to get into running when that season of life ends. Last night was my first run. I would consider myself to be pretty active and it is very important to me, but as a working mom, one thing I'm not willing to give up is time with my family. So I have to find a way to fit it in without disrupting that quality time. So far, I've done at home videos (Jillian Michaels) during Maddie's naps on my days off or at night when Brenton has any work to do. We've also been getting into family bike rides this summer. I do miss being able to go anytime I feel like it, but I am learning to find ways to fit it in the schedule. I know what you're thinking. Get a jogging stroller. Been there, done that and I am not jogging with any stroller. That is way harder and I am having enough trouble running ALONE.

Anyway, the first chance I got to run last night was at 9 pm. I have to say, it wasn't pretty (especially the part when I nearly ran right right a low branch with my face) but it was beautiful out and night time runs might end up being a favorite. If I can get past the side aches and gasping for air. Any advice is gladly welcome as I reintroduce this humbling activity into my schedule with bittersweet feelings.

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almost one.

We're about 2 weeks away from the little one's first birthday. When they say, "it goes by so fast", they're not kidding. I plan to do a highlights from the first year post eventually, but for now, let's talk about how to plan a first birthday party for your child while wondering how you even managed to keep one alive for a whole year!
First things first.
For kids, many people have a themed party, and usually it's something that they're really into. Back in February, Maddie was invited to her first birthday party for her friend, Gavin. He had a super cute Tigger party complete with party hats, and orange and black striped balloons. He's pretty cute by the way :) Maybe we'll work on setting them up at some point!!

For us, the theme came easily. She was born on the Fourth of July, so we  knew right away that we wanted to go with red, white, and blue. However, as I've been collecting things and "pinteresting" I have been trying to stay away from too much of the flag stuff since I want it to look more like a birthday party.

Next, I designed her invitations. We had a pretty big guest list with family and friends, so I only did official invitations for her grandparents, great grandparents, aunts and uncles. Inspired by this invite, and with some help from my friend, Carolyn, this is what we came up with. I got the pack of paper from Hobby Lobby and there is enough for me to use for her scrapbook pages afterwards. The words and the "fireworks" are actually Carolyn's stamps that I borrowed.

After the invites were mailed and the e-mails were sent, we started collecting everyone's RSVPs to see about how many people were coming so we could plan for food, number of tables and chairs, etc... And now for the fun stuff! The table decorations, cake, pictures, menu, and outfit!

I felt strongly that a little girl should wear a dress for her first birthday party. My mom apparently felt the same way, since she found this pretty little dress for her to wear. It's navy blue and white striped with a little bow in the front. It's just a little big on her but it will work pretty good! And it has just the right amount of poof. In order to add some red accents, I found these perfect red flowers to make into a headband for the party too! We'll see how it turns out, but they are just the right size. Now we just have to pretend that she'll actually keep in on her head all day...

                     

You'll soon discover, that my mom is a big contributor to this party. She found these little white lanterns at IKEA a couple months ago. They should be a perfect addition to the tables for a little centerpiece. On the subject of centerpieces, Brenton and I stopped at a thrift store this weekend and I found a nice collection of cheap mason jars for flowers or candy or mints or something yet to be determined, but they were cute! I got two sizes.

                               

For tablecloths, paper plates, confetti, forks, spoons etc.. We just visited the dollar tree. It seems like all these details add up fast, so that seemed like the place to go to. Everything we got from there should be just fine, but we did get these fun red/white striped napkins (again from Mom) for the party. :)

                              

For the cake! My wonderfully talented friend Beth has kindly agreed to help me with this pinterest inspired cake + sparklers! She and her husband won't be able to make the party, but she kindly agreed to assist me the night before. We're thinking something like red/blue velvet with a cream cheese frosting! And I'm telling you right now. With Beth's help, not only will this cake look good, but it will taste good... Pressure's on Beth! :)
 As for the rest of the menu, we decided to try to make things pretty simple. I have asked a few guests to bring some side items and I'll do some kind of crock pot chicken that is TBD.

I'm still trying to figure out exactly how we'll display pictures. If you follow me on Instagram, you know that about 90% of  my picture are Madeline : / Awhile back I found this site where you can order your prints. I did place an order for the 4 x 4 squares and was really impressed with how they turned out. It's a little pricey, but I think the quality of the pictures is worth it! I'm thinking about doing something here and then looking for a fun way to display a few of them on the tables.

One other thing that I have to try to talk my husband into is some kind of fun outdoor lighting from World Market - which in my mind is a little piece of heaven on earth.

Stay tuned for pictures from the big day!

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